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I set up a twitter account so that I could post "instant updates" from my phone to twitter, and then to this blog! So now everyone will be able to stay up-to-date to the minute as I document my journey of these last 2 weeks of pregnancy and of course labor and delivery!

14 long, miserable, uncomfortable days...

As of today we have 14 days until our due date - 2 short weeks, but honestly I think I'm done! I'm sure all pregnant women have this feeling at some point during their pregnancy and I guess I've hit my boiling point!

I am really about to kill someone, mainly people at work. I see you everyday - why do you insist on asking me everyday something about me still being pregnant or how I'm feeling or how I'm handling it, or commenting on how miserable and uncomfortable I look? I just don't get it! I KNOW I'm uncomfortable, I KNOW how miserable I feel - and if you can TELL just by looking at my why would you still force me to speak to you about it? Can't people just leave a pregnant lady alone? I can't stand it!

I know I'm sounding like, and I'm sure acting like, QUEEN B at this point, but I really have no off switch anymore! And the more people that ask me about being pregnant the more rude of a response I start giving and I just really don't care. I think I'm going to start shutting my office door - and hopefully that will keep them away!

I just don't know how I'm going to make it another 2 weeks...this is HORRIBLE!

1.5 centimeters....

Grr... Just got back from our doctor appointment and well we didn't make much progress. She said I'm 1.5 cm - maybe 2, but decided 1.5 and still pretty thick, but much easier to check this week then last week. So all in all - I didn't get anywhere. FRUSTRATING!

Then we had this conversation:
Dr: I can let you go to 41 weeks
Me: Shakes head NO
Dr: I know you don't want to go to 41 weeks
Me: I'm just more concerned about his size and him getting too big since you've said he has been big the whole time?
Dr: Well let's see where we are at next Wednesday and what progress you've made. If there hasn't been much we will get another ultrasound to check his size again and then go from there.

You'd think this would make me happy, but the office only does ultrasounds on Thursdays and Tuesdays and since our appointment is on Wednesday I'm sure I won't get on the schedule for the next day so I will have to wait until the next Tuesday (June 2nd) which is the day before our due date! So even if Dr. decides to induce it will still be past our due date! I'm just so ready to get this baby out of me! I swear if he is too big I will KILL someone!

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DROPPED!!

I know this might all be wishful thinking, but I have received confirmation from a few people at work this morning so maybe it's the real deal. Last night little Jack Hammer woke me up doing some crazy little jig in my belly - I know you are thinking, OK what's special about that? Well he actually hasn't been moving that much lately or at least not like he used to - I feel more rolling type movements as opposed to his old sharp punches and kicks. Anyway, I thought to myself - maybe this is him making his big move down, but thought I'd better not get excited so I just laid there for a few minutes and fell back asleep.

Upon my waking up this morning I immediately felt "different" like more pressure down there and lower and more constant than usual. I figured I just needed to go to the bathroom, b/c all of your ladies that are or have ever been pregnant know that when you have to use the restroom it pretty much feels like the baby is trying to escape from your downstairs area and you have to "waddle" quickly to the restroom to relieve the pressure. I went to the restroom, but then as I stood up and starting taking my first few steps I thought to myself, "Am I not done? Is there more?" b/c I still felt an intense amount of pressure. So I sat back down and waited and waited, then decided I guess I was done. Well the pressure has yet to subside and it just feels like there is something down there, lower then yesterday. Then I saw my friend at work just a few minutes ago and she was like - did you drop since yesterday? I know my face lit up b/c I thought "maybe I'm not crazy?" She said yesterday you were still up pretty far up under your boobs and today you aren't? So I explained to her (she has had 2 kids) the whole story and how I've been feeling today and she was like, well I'd say he is making his move down!!

I know this isn't a sure fire confirmation and I know I will never get one, but something just feels different! But if this is how I'm going to feel until I deliver I don't think I'm lovin' it? It's awkward and uncomfortable - imagine having to use the restroom 24/7? That's what I'm feeling!

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3 Weeks To Go!!!

As of today we officially have 3 weeks - only 21 days - until our due date! I'm so ready for Baby Jack to get here already! Seems like we've been waiting FOREVER, however this revelation has also led me to think about all the things we have yet to do. Install the car seat bases in our vehicles, pack our bags for the hospital, give every room in the house another thorough cleaning and make sure the rest of his clothes are washed! Yikes! And I still need a trash can for his room - so many things to think about! I did already get all our travel sized items for the hospital and bagged it all up in a plastic bag and I put the necessities in the diaper bag - although I'm not sure I'm even taking that to the hospital? Am I supposed to? I also realized I don't have a true coming home outfit for Jack?! I thought I had one then I realized it was 0-3 months and not newborn, but hopefully it might fit or else he might be coming home in a onesie!

It's going to be a busy weekend too b/c Chris' brother is graduating from Pitt State so we are attending his party on Saturday afternoon... I know I'm going to start majorly stressing any day now! Haha!

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1 Centimeter!

We had our first appointment in almost 3 weeks this morning and it was actually quite amusing! First I got weighed, no biggie. Peed in the cup - nothing new. Blood pressure 110/64 - good. Then the nurse says, "Dr. is going to do your Group B Strep Test so just undress from the waist down and I will give you a drape" I thought, "OK-no big deal". Well the drape didn't so much fit. I tried it laying across my lap, but that left my bottom exposed. I tried putting it around me from the back but then the front was out there for all to see. I kept messing with it until I managed to tear 2 or 3 large holes in it from trying to force it to fit. Then Chris so politely said, "Maybe that's not the maternity drape?" Haha! I was fairly sure there was only one size, but decided to give the Dr. a bit of a hard time, teasing her as to why she told the nurse to give me the pre-prego drape instead of the maternity drape!? She laughed and said "It's one size fits all!"- we both laughed, b/c obviously this one size wasn't fitting all!

So enough about that, she did my swab - not going into detail. Then I said, "Oh, this is the week you check me, right (knowing good and well that she doesn't start checking until 38 weeks)?" And she said "Well usually I don't until 38 weeks (we are 36 weeks and 5 days), unless there is a reason too or you are just dying to be checked?" I said, "Yes, dying!" So she checked, she said, "Lots of pressure..." It really didn't hurt or anything - at first, she said I was 1 centimeter dilated, but still pretty thick - then she started pushing from the top of my belly and from inside the down there area - and goes, and I can still push baby up a bit - THAT FREAKIN HURT!!! So I guess 1 is better then none, but he definitely won't be coming in the near, near future! She said to go ahead and make an appointment per week until our due date - so I made the last one for June 1st on a Monday that way I can talk induction of that week instead of having to wait the week after our due date if he hasn't arrived by then!

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To Circumsize or Not Circumsize...

That is NOT the question - of course we are...but which method do you chose?

As part of our pediatrician visit this morning we discussed whether or not we were going to have him circumsized...well heck yes we are! The doctor then described the two methods of circumcision - #1 Gomco Method - this is where they actually cut the foreskin away, she said that post care is having to put vaseline and gauze on it everytime you change his diaper as well as just keeping the area clean. #2 Plastibell Method - this is where they pull the foreskin back and put a plastic ring on, then pull the skin back up and then tie a string around it cutting off the blood supply and then after a week or so the dead foreskin will fall off.

I asked which method was more common and she said she does more of the Gomco procedures, and before I could ask which method was more invasive or which one was easier/more comfortable for the baby - Chris interjects, we'll do that one! OK - thanks for discussing this with me?! Dr. said most people like Gomco b/c you can see the results immediately versus waiting a week or so? I'm like I don't care about immediate results - I care about making my little man comfortable and anytime you cut anything there is a chance for infection and other complications. Chris and I may be discussing this more at a later date before anything is done...

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Pediatrician

On top of all the crazy weather this morning, Chris and I ventured across town (long ways I know) and had our "New Mommy (and Daddy)" visit with our pediatrician. Basically, you go in and meet the doctor, she asks a bunch of questions, you can ask questions and then it's over - gotta love doctors, no wonder insurance premiums are on the rise!

But I was glad we did it b/c we discussed his kidney situation and she said that a couple weeks after he is born they she will do an ultrasound on him to see how they look and just go from there, but that usually it will correct itself on its own and that we will just need to monitor it.

Our pediatrician is a new, young female doctor in town. I've heard really good things about her so that makes me feel good, but I just really hate where her office is. It's in the Community Health Center (where typically lower income families go), but I have no choice. The two older pediatricians in town won't hardly ever take any new patients and the only other two pediatricians are both at the health center. I'm not worried or concerned at all about the level of care we will get out there, but just more about the environment and all the crazy, dirty, icky people that we will have to encounter in the waiting areas?! I know I might sound like a superficial brat, but hey it's my kid and I don't want him catching anyone's germs - especially dirty germs from Mexico (I can say that I'm half mexican)! haha! The waiting room was full of spanish only speaking individuals this morning! Are you getting a better picture of what I'm dealing with here!?

Most of my friends here in town take their kids there too b/c like I said you can't get into the other pediatricians in town and they are always satisfied with the care, but the only complaint is the environment. So I'm just going to have to put a mask on him like we are trying to avoid the Swine Flu and keep a blanket over his carrier while in the waiting room! haha!

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In The 20's

Yes, today my baby ticker said only 29 days to go! It's so weird to think that in less then a month we are going to have a baby, like a little person! I think we have done all the preparing we can do, and I also know that 95% of our preparations aren't going to mean squat once we actually have him and take him home! I've spent hours working on his room, but I know for awhile he isn't even going to be in his room, except for maybe naps? I've organized and reorganized his clothes, the bathroom, our bedroom, the living room, dining room (still have the kitchen left this weekend) and I know none of that is going to matter. All that is going to matter is being home with my little man and being completely consumed by him!? Wow, life will truly never be the same in 29 days...

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My Body Will Never Be The Same...

As I started looking back at my old posts I became obsessed with my pregnancy photos. The damage, I mean change, that has taken place over the last 35 weeks is devastating, I mean amazing! I thought I would gather some of them and put them all in one post for easy inspection for everyone!

12 Weeks

16 Weeks

21 Weeks

25 Weeks

28 Weeks

31 Weeks

33 Weeks

35 Weeks

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